Becoming a speaker in front of the crowd or in front of many people is really awesome to see and I saw different people who are confident on speaking in front of these people just like their brother or sister.
Seeing them speaking normally while people are listening is one of the dreams that I couldn't do. Well I've tried speaking at many people and it hits really different when you are the one that is listening or you are the one who is speaking in front of them.
While it's on my turn to speak in front of these stranger people, it seems that I have a mental block that even some words that I construct before hours ago went missing and my mind couldn't process on what to speak and what to do.
Well, I was practicing and doing my best on this kind of situation and I can speak really well, I can also do actions on the words that I can express but at the times that I am practicing, there were no people that is in front of me but in an actual scene where I need to speak from these stranger people, woah! no words came out from the one that I practice before and when I tried to speak, different words will come out of my mouth and different from the words that I also practice before.
I am amaze by those people who can casually speak from these people that they don't know and seeing them talking while breaking some jokes is really fun to hear and see.
When the time that I am the one who is speaking, it hits really different because even if there's a small detail that I like to speak, I couldn't because I am nervous, tense, and getting a mental block while speaking.
Well, I don't have any problem talking with someone whom I know like an acquaintance, friend, relative, etc and I can speak casually with them just like a normal speaker. It's just that I am afraid of talking in many people and seeing them watching and listening over me gives me pressure and I will become more tense while speaking.
I think, one way to conquer this kind of feeling while speaking in front of many people is that try practice talking with the strangers and not just one stranger but many strangers for me to grow and to learn to speak casually in front of them.
