I am the one who is struggling because we have a medicine that prescribe by the doctor before leaving in the hospital and I really stress because those medicine so expensive. We asked for help for the social worker and the Dswd there are a lot of people because it's free. We also asked for help to his medicine and the remaining hospital bill. Its hot, hungry and the long line is very tiring just to get free from the government. Is just went with him because something else might happen to him.
Sometimes I wonder if what I'm doing for him is really right because of the many things he did to me that we're not nice I'm still here helping him. I am really stupid or do I just love my children, I don't want them to grow up with out recognized father. I may be wrong in the eyes or others but we are only human and make mistakes. I don't even know myself that a sorry is fine again, maybe it's not my habit to hold grudges again other people. As long as my children are happy.. I'm fine and he is also the father of my children.
Right now we are happy with their father even though he is very stressed about the bill because he got sick. He has returned to his job and he is still at home, I'm happy no matter what because he doesn't see him smoking. Because the doctor not allowed him to her bad habits and I just pray that he will do for our children. When he has free time he will be busy with gardening and I'm very thankful..
Thankyou for the support @justineparke for inviting me @imshane48788 and for making me an account @olivia08 hive all the way. 
If it willake you happy, go and do for it and your intention is really admirable. You have a good heart. Love is God. The demon never win against you. Keep your head up high for your kids. The 3red time he ignored you, then forgive him buy leave him.
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