I wasn't a hardcore religious person. Perhaps the first 40 years of my life, despite being baptised as an infant and for some girls that i chased after was from the church that landed me a deal of confirmation when i was a teenager, I have never been a "Christian" at all.
Few of the life changing event happened in my life(probably yours too), one of the nost significant being Covid 19 lockdown. If you dont know what that is, please skip this post and proceed with the next one. I had stopped smoking due to out of stock. Since cigarettes is NOT consider as necessity, therefore the convenient shop hasn't been replenishing. I was so desparate at one point i even roll a toilet paper trying to smoke it. I guess the horrible smells really drove me away from wanting to put more smoke into myself anymore. Since then, i have not been smoking anymore. Not like i dont like the cigarettes smell, i just couldnt imagine to put another puff into myself anymore. I felt like that toilet rolled up joint literally put a saturation mark in my brains.
Last year, i lost my dad in November. The protestant wake and funeral literally scares the crap out of my pee hole. The reverant sermon, the churches friends sharing during the funeral is so powerful, such strong message of how to be a good Christian, why need to be a Christian, how to not go to hell. Frankly speaking, i don't feel comfortable sitting there. I tend to feel the need to inform my relative my dad don't normally practice these extreme. I felt totally ashame to be part of that community. So much worst than i did something bad and might tarnish the name of Jesus, rather than be "those" Christian at that funeral.
It still feel unreal to be accepted by the Catholic church, after being attending Catholic mass in this church for 20 years(since i know my ex-girlfriend - now my wife). No i am not ready to convert, there are some Catholic practice i couldn't agree with at this point of time. Its not like i am willing to openly say i am a Catholic, but sure i don't feel bad to admit I'm a Christian.
This part of my life, i am feeling way more religious then i was previously. I spent my first part of my life celebrating Christmas without even knowing the Christmas celebration is actually multiple events happened over the years, probably the pre-teenage of Jesus. Three kings for example, by the time they reached Jerusalem, Jesus is no longer infant/baby, he's already a child. It's truly interesting to understand Bible from a different perspective.
The link is an uploaded video of our final rehearsal for our lent presentation. It was a series of Lullaby songs we've prepared for the advent concert. Again, i thought the songs are beautifully written. I am not exactly sure if we did it correctly, but here's what i have during our final practice. One of the verse are about King Herod ordered the soldiers to kill all boy child below the age of 2. For the first time i can feel the magnitude of what happen in the history. This is "the other side" of the Christmas that no one celebrates, which i thought its important to remember.
I am touch with your story. Religion cant save us but how to be you in this world with humanity. My sister told me , you are such a good person. Merry Christmas
Thank you my friend
圣诞节快到了，我们也开始彩排圣诞节相关节目了。。
谢谢鸭。剩蛋快热。
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