No I didn't. I did all that I could with the situation and I made my last call to her at end of January. A friend kindly reminded me how those who are dying will keep hanging on as long as loved ones hold them here. I didn't want to do that, so I said good-bye without telling her that directly in the last call. She had degraded to the point where it was close to impossible to even talk. I remember this from my father going through this same thing a few years back. This week, thoughts of her kept popping into my mind, which hasn't happened for a few months. Then the meeting in the cemetery and late that night, it came into my thoughts very clearly that a message was being delivered. Today, I called the hospital and they have no record of her there. From that, I gather she is dead now. When exactly I don't know and I can't find confirmation in obituaries, which is the only way I'm going to find out, unless there's a repeat of this, which I am hoping to avoid, in the event of, I won't be answering the door at all this time. I also won't be caught off guard this time either. Not meaning to be a downer, it's just the way it is.
Ohhhhh this is entirely different from what I though you were referring to.
I'm so sorry! But also it sounds like you were better able to prepare and let go. Not everyone gets this opportunity. A different process of grieving, I imagine. Still just as painful.
Hopefully also this ultimately severs any connections you have to your brother.
Thanks, it's okay. I learned in my early 20's (the hard way) to make sure I live in such a way that I don't have regrets where people are concerned, should something happen where I lose them, not always to death either. Every time one goes through grief, it's different I've noticed. I had a lot of time to prepare where both my parents were concerned, so I'm very grateful. That said, I made choices to do all these things because of what I learned in my early 20's. Really not sure how I feel right now, detached is a good description. This was the last connection. I was waiting, so that also good. Can't hurt someone when you have nothing to hurt them with, LOL.
Awww, that felt like a virtual hug that was so warm. Thank you. Still trying to write a post, words are so hard lately. Of course all the photos are done, but words are consitpated. 😂
I ate cremini mushrooms in my stir fry last night but that didn't do the trick. Instead, I forced myself to scrabble some words in some kind of soup together today, not sure it makes sense, but it's going up anyway.
No I didn't. I did all that I could with the situation and I made my last call to her at end of January. A friend kindly reminded me how those who are dying will keep hanging on as long as loved ones hold them here. I didn't want to do that, so I said good-bye without telling her that directly in the last call. She had degraded to the point where it was close to impossible to even talk. I remember this from my father going through this same thing a few years back. This week, thoughts of her kept popping into my mind, which hasn't happened for a few months. Then the meeting in the cemetery and late that night, it came into my thoughts very clearly that a message was being delivered. Today, I called the hospital and they have no record of her there. From that, I gather she is dead now. When exactly I don't know and I can't find confirmation in obituaries, which is the only way I'm going to find out, unless there's a repeat of this, which I am hoping to avoid, in the event of, I won't be answering the door at all this time. I also won't be caught off guard this time either. Not meaning to be a downer, it's just the way it is.
Ohhhhh this is entirely different from what I though you were referring to.
I'm so sorry! But also it sounds like you were better able to prepare and let go. Not everyone gets this opportunity. A different process of grieving, I imagine. Still just as painful.
Hopefully also this ultimately severs any connections you have to your brother.
Thanks, it's okay. I learned in my early 20's (the hard way) to make sure I live in such a way that I don't have regrets where people are concerned, should something happen where I lose them, not always to death either. Every time one goes through grief, it's different I've noticed. I had a lot of time to prepare where both my parents were concerned, so I'm very grateful. That said, I made choices to do all these things because of what I learned in my early 20's. Really not sure how I feel right now, detached is a good description. This was the last connection. I was waiting, so that also good. Can't hurt someone when you have nothing to hurt them with, LOL.
But stiiiilllllll.😢
Much love.
Awww, that felt like a virtual hug that was so warm. Thank you. Still trying to write a post, words are so hard lately. Of course all the photos are done, but words are consitpated. 😂
mushrooms.
I ate cremini mushrooms in my stir fry last night but that didn't do the trick. Instead, I forced myself to scrabble some words in some kind of soup together today, not sure it makes sense, but it's going up anyway.