I have always had this independent mentality of like, I can't trust nobody and I don't want to trust nobody because I don't want to have to depend on anybody and then be let down and disappointed with suffering made me, it makes me very dependent on God.
It shows me that he is dependable. You will never actually want to lean on somebody like you ever, you know, have friends, but then you finally hit hard times and you see who really down for you, who really rocking.
Like, I know that this person is not going to be able to handle covering me in prayer when I go through difficult things because they don't even pray with me now, or they might have prayed for me in the good times, but then when I get, when I go through hard things and they can't handle, you know, what I'm going through because it triggers their trauma in their past, I see that they are not in a place to really be my covering or whatever.
I Think suffering made me dependent on God in ways that I never actually ran to him for because I thought that I could handle it on my own. And when you don't have the strength, when you are suffering and you are weak,
The Bible says that God's strength is made perfect in our weakness, meaning where we end, Where we don't have the strength to stand on our own.
God literally can hold us up.
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