I am very sorry for all that you are going through, dear @stellify. However, we must continue to bet on the true principles of respect towards society and especially towards those little animals, which in one way or another contribute to make life more pleasant and have a real meaning. Everything that happens outside of our own being, the things over which we do not have total control, is completely neutral. It is the attitude we take that will make the difference. Don't be discouraged and continue to contribute to making this world a good place to live with all animals. I think I read somewhere that, despite all the bad in this world, the good ones are in the majority. Otherwise the human race would have disappeared by now.
Keep up the good work. We need you now more than ever.