That day I was writing on my computer, my mouth had stunk for having fish on breakfast and also, I had received two weeks ago the dagger news. “workforce not qualified” was the miserable reason of me being fired, -what a destiny- I told myself. But my mind was in another place, in the fact that I didn´t have any money, that I would want be independent and in the old lady that rented me the room.
I didn´t tolerate this old-fish-face lady, she was such a hypocrite, she showed a false smile and later talk trash behind backs when she turned around, finally fed up of my thoughts fluttering around me, I said to myself -I can´t deal with this anymore, I have to put in order the things, nobody is going to miss her, she hasn´t have any family alive- I repeated myself these words all the time for entering in a good mood and I didn´t hesitated in what I´m was going to do next.
I knew when she was, in the church at two blocks across the residence, yes, that bad and evil place where the deaths in live gossiped and lied, putrefied lies like the stink that was in my mouth.
I left my lair and went to the kitchen, I don´t know why at that moment I thought in that writing was going to redeem me, that gave me the courage to take the knife and see on the sheet´s reflex my white skin, almost without live.
Even though the time was passing slow, it was 11am very fast. -she will come- I said. – when I will do it? When she entered? When she was sited? When she isn´t facing me? - suddenly my mind just turned off and I disposed myself of that stupid idea.
-if I could just keep this house for me-I said with sadness.
Suddenly I keep back again the knife in its drawer and in that moment at the corner of my lips a glimpse of a smile appeared in it, a sort of happiness that barely is comparable when I drank two sips of that Godly rum.
When I read a newspaper´s main tittle on the table; “A Virus is flying over the city and old people are in a guillotine”, I knew that a flying germ was hanging around and was depriving of possessions to all those hypocrites who had more that those “not qualified”.
