I want to write, but I just open the document, turn on the light, lie on the bed, open my eyes, daze. My eyes are swollen.
I am not happy that he is always quick to part, I think he is not three minutes hot, but I myself. He said he had to go home. We all need our own part of life.
I suddenly understood why I was like that, I didn't want to go back to my life, whether it was one or three. Either alone or being nagged, as if there is no balance or I can't coordinate. Tonight I'm talking again about how I should stop reading all the time, which used to be don't look at the computer all the time, don't look at the phone all the time. Those jokes that are no longer funny, playing Japanese tunes, and not being friends with whoever, have become more distant.
Those nights when you don't want to go home are also because of this, right? Only now I can hold him and put the blame on him, what's his fault. I don't know what I'm missing, but it's my own fault.
It is now talking about a relationship also tucked away, but also like middle school fear of being found by parents feel, even the evening video chat are afraid to open, close the door are feeling will be eavesdropped. I am afraid of what it is, what can not be open and honest it, I do not know.
Auntie is very warm, nothing distant, you can see very spoiled you. Maybe our families feel different. I don't know. It obviously seems pretty good, what exactly closes the door. They also don't know I've been to your house, or this meeting, or that I'm this kind of person, I guess, and it's as if I don't want them to know anything.
After tonight I will probably be able to learn to separate like you, I think. But the self that has thought about it this way always feels like I have to face it all alone after a dry separation, like sighing or holding my breath and walking into the image of stoic sadness. I may not be my old self anymore.
Yay! 🤗
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