¡Querido Hijo!
Vengo a procesar lo que ha pasado en mi vida, la experiencia tan atroz que he vivido, páseme un trago tan fuerte que me queme el pecho, que lo que hoy era algo serio en el pasado no di importancia, pasa que las consecuencias de mis aptos me han alcanzado y quien ha pagado a sido el ser más inofensivo. Pasa que he tenido lo más precioso entre mis brazos, y no he podido disfrutar porque me lo han arrebatado, si, así como le cuento.
He cruzado por el bosque de las sombras, donde he tenido la vida en mis manos, y no he sabido proteger, y la muerte me la ha arrebatado. No estaba en mis manos salvarla, hice todo lo posible, y ella, ella batallaba y peleaba contra leones y lobos, contra escorpiones y alacranes, contra serpientes y todo aquel animal peligroso que se le acercaba, pero la batalla ha sido dura, y no ha podido soportar. Le he reclamado por ser cobarde y no seguir, le he reclamado por rendirse y no continuar, me enoje porque sentí que me soltó la mano cuando le pedí que no lo hiciera, le pedí que no rompiera mi corazón y lo hay dejado vuelto añicos.
Dear son!
I come to process what has happened in my life, the atrocious experience that I have lived, pass me a drink so strong that it burns my chest, that what today was something serious in the past I did not give importance, it happens that the consequences of my suitable have reached me and who has paid has been the most harmless being. It happens that I have had the most precious thing in my arms, and I have not been able to enjoy it because they have taken it from me, yes, as I tell you.
I have crossed through the forest of shadows, where I have had life in my hands, and I have not known how to protect, and death has taken it from me. It was not in my power to save her, I did everything possible, and she, she fought and fought against lions and wolves, against scorpions and scorpions, against snakes and all that dangerous animal that approached her, but the battle has been hard, and not has been able to bear. I have complained to him for being a coward and not going on, I have complained to him for giving up and not continuing, I got angry because I felt that he let go of my hand when I asked him not to, I asked him not to break my heart and he has left it shattered.
I am only wounded in body and soul. The battle was really very hard, it was quite strong. But it was all my fault, for not listening in time when at that moment I could have chosen the path of life and not the path of darkness, when she yelled at me to wake up and I didn't, then by the time I realized it, it was late. Late to avoid the misfortune for which I battled not to happen. I failed in life and she has left me alone. Alone in the dark sea, alone in the middle of nowhere, alone in the middle of death
I will take a strong drink to forget, but I can't do it, the memories come again and again, memories that hit my soul, because they take me to that moment where that life struggled alone to survive, where that life was planted inside the cocoon with strength to fight, when with strength it manifested as saying here I am, look at me, feel me, love me and do not let me go that one day I want to be able to meet you. How those moments hit me when it was I who denied you, who said aloud that you did not exist and would not exist, that you would not go out into the world to make anyone fall in love and that my only intention was to forget you. But you were strong, you kept fighting, you kept fighting and now that I think about it, you have not abandoned me, it was me.
Aun puedo recordar el momento más grato de mi vida, los minutos que aportan valor a todo lo que ha sido mi vida entera, ese momento cuando por primera vez te sentí en brazos y vi tu carita, agarre tu manita y sentí tu ternura. En ese momento lágrimas brotaron de mis ojos, lagrimas que no sabría explicar que emoción querían transmitir, en ese momento te pedí perdón por lastimarte tanto, perdón por no haberte amado desde el primer momento que supe de ti. Y el recuerdo que más me destruye fue aquel momento donde decidiste cumplir aquel deseo tan cruel que muchas veces grite lleno de rabia para que se cumpliera y ahora ese deseo se ha vuelto una pesadilla dejando la tristeza más grande que pude sentir en todo lo que he vivido.
Pero te prometo que la lección viniste a darme la he aprendido y andaré por el mundo por lo que me queda de vida luchando para que más seres como tu no sufran por malas decisiones de quienes no sabemos valorarlos aun.
Te amo con todo mí ser.
I can still remember the most pleasant moment of my life, the minutes that add value to everything that has been my whole life, that moment when for the first time I felt you in my arms and I saw your face, I grabbed your little hand and I felt your tenderness. At that moment tears welled up in my eyes, tears that I could not explain what emotion they wanted to convey, at that moment I asked you to forgive me for hurting you so much, sorry for not having loved you from the first moment I knew about you. And the memory that destroys me the most was that moment where you decided to fulfill that wish so cruel that many times I shouted full of anger for it to be fulfilled and now that wish has become a nightmare, leaving the greatest sadness that I could feel in everything I have. vivid.
But I promise you that the lesson you came to give me I have learned and I will walk the world for the rest of my life fighting so that more beings like you do not suffer from bad decisions of those who do not know how to value them yet.
I love you with all my being.