Reading through this, I think I'm one big liar to myself. I've lied a lot to myself and I just kinda realized it now.
I don't think it's possible not to lie to oneself, sometimes we lie to ourselves to comfort ourselves from feeling too hurt.
It's not always right but it should be allowed some times, lie but don't deceive yourself too much. You can say you're fine but don't stop taking good care of yourself.
Anyways, this is a really nice post.
Thank you for your attention and approval) I am glad that it was useful for you)