Seems like you are starting to get it. So much in here that you and I already have talked about.
Much of the above is the reason why I am letting go of/have already let go of my perfectionism and am working on being less of a people pleaser, speaking the truth more without being a total a-hole.
Also, worrying is one of the worst things that we can do and - at the same time - one of the most deeply ingrained habits of most people ( myself included ).
Worrying leads to stress and stress leads to dis ease.
Looking forward to meeting each other face to face again, soonish!