Sorry for your lost, I think I can relate with that too. Ever since I lost my dad, my fear for loosing people vanished. It became somehow normal to me. It is very painful to loose a loved one, a person who has never experienced it before won't know how it really feels until the day he finally falls a victim. I am so glad you learnt how to move on, that is the most important thing in life. Getting back to your feet and keep pushing. Thanks for sharing this with us