Earlier today, I had taken a walk with my friends inside my school and about an hour into that walk, they both decided it was time for us to head back home. This was a decision that I wasn't totally in support of, but I had to adhere to it, mostly due to the fact that the majority were in support of it.
On our way back home, I began the question myself why I've never gone on walks alone, why I always went with someone when I easily could take my headset with me and just enjoy my walk peacefully, without having to force myself to interact with anyone.
Funny enough, this doesn't only happen to me when I go on a stroll, it happens everywhere, even when I go out to places to relax... A few days ago, I was telling a friend of mine how I've never really gone out to maybe a restaurant or a bar all alone just to relax and just have a good time.
And this isn't because I'm always broke or something like that, because there had been countless times when I had asked my friends to come along while I paid all of their bills, so it's definitely not the money, and definitely not because I need company (I used to think it was because of this), although the company do occasionally turns out to be important..
But you see, I've come to realize that it's my fear of doing things alone. It's a phobia that I've had for years now and never really got rid of it because I never really saw it as a problem, always wanting to be with someone especially when I'm trying out something new.
And the reason why I call this a phobia is because I know it's fear, fear of the unknown. It is that fear that always pushes me to always look for someone to accompany me, that way if things do go bad, I would have someone there with me, either to encourage me or to help me fix the problem.
Now that isn't exactly a bad reason to always want someone with you, but it's really bad for my confidence because what if I find myself in a situation where it's just me and I can't call someone for help? What do I do?
Well I've decided to change that, and I'm starting by going on a walk tomorrow all by myself. I won't tell anyone where I'm going, I'm just going to get ready and leave and then come back later in the evening.
I'm sure I will enjoy myself, but if I don't, I still will be proud of myself for trying.
The fear you mentioned is not a big deal in my opinion and you can adapt with situation even it it's the opposite. I don't think you need to make manual approach for such kind of situation. In case of walk, you can enjoy it and it will be a good experience also.