My love life has been pretty interesting. It’s been fun, complicated, sad, emotional, sweet and painful. I’ve met some people who’ve shown me different kind of emotions and out of all these people, I met some who gave me something greater. She gave me this sweet feeling that I’ve only felt in a long time. I can’t explain how I feel about her. Am I lust after her, obsessed with her or in love with her. Since I’ve started loving, I have never been this confused before. She makes me feel like a baby who yearns for much love. Even after all this, I can’t put a name to the kind of relationship I want with her. Is this just a fling or what? I don’t even know. If I’m to be asked what I want or need from her, it’ll be for us to be together and if possible stay loved with each other forever.
What do I want from love? This would be to have a partner who I understand and who also understands me. Someone I can comfortably express myself to without lying or hiding somethings from her. Someone that knows when I’m been truthful and also when I’m lying. Someone I can relay with. A person who sees me with and still wants to be with me without even looking at some complicated things in me be it my health, finance or personal issues. This girl seems to be the person I’m looking for but, she finds it hard to trust me with her heart. She says that she’d hurt me but I feel like I’m already hurting just by her lack of trust for me. I don’t blame her for that because, it’s very hard to trust someone with something as precious as your heart. Sometimes I wonder if, I’m over rushing things with her or am I forcing her to do something against her wish but I feel like I’m doing something wrong here.
I don’t want to make a mistake by loving the wrong person and getting hurt but, how do I find the right person if I don’t risk my heart by loving the people who acts like they love me? what does it mean for someone to be the reason behind your every smile if they can’t love you? I’ve pondered so much on this and I keep getting one answer which is, that person is the only person who can love you genuinely. SOPHIE HENRY, I might be running faster than my shadows just to get something so precious to you but, I want to say I’m head over heels for you and I’m not letting go of what I feel for you because this feeling is precious to me just the way you’re to me. PLEASE, allow me to build my world around you because, I LOVE YOU MUCH MORE THAN YOU CAN EVER IMAGINE.