If only you could see this unique part of me, if only you could just be patient and know that I have always been here all along. If only you could just smile at me and tell me that I have a chance. But instead, I only heard that it can never come to be, or that the opportunity to even try is not there at all.
You showed me the first impression, but I didn't take it seriously. You showed me the second, but I still didn't take it seriously. And when you showed me the third, I realized that it was serious. I realized that life itself is just like a door - when you keep knocking, the person on the other side might decide to open it after one to three knocks, or they might not decide to open it at all.
I opened the door after your fifth knock, because I wanted you to know that I was ready to accept you. But when I opened it, it was too late, and you shifted your eyes away from me and said you wanted someone else. It felt like I was left standing there, holding the door open, waiting for a response that never came.
Now, I'm confused, because my heart has gone out to you, and I'm heartbroken because you wanted someone else. I haven't even tried, and I haven't even started, yet I got rejected without even hearing a word directly. It's hard not to take it personally, not to wonder what's wrong with me.
I hope all these feelings go away, and I hope you find the one who is right for you. I'm at the verge of moving on, and I just need one sign that you're not ready to knock on that door anymore, and that you don't even want to come close to it. Maybe then I can finally close the door and move on with my life.
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The Vulnerable Pen