There's a book authored by C. S. Lewis called A Grief Observed.
That's when I encountered his term "cosmic sadist" in reference to the creator and in the context of spite for letting a thing called life and death be the way they are.
The term just stuck with me whenever I contemplate about existential dread and death.
I've not heard of the b title however you're description 'dread and death' is very dark and grim like description.
When I get contemplative about death my go to is "Bushido, the soul of Japan" by Inazo Nitobe.
It's a process but most are preoccupied with the highlight event than the steps to get to that event. Even accidents get their small window period where people had a microcosmic process of feeling their mortality before they go. And this piece of truth is different for everybody. I can't be assed to assume life is the way it is based from my view on someone else's experience/truth, the same thing goes when someone deals with death.
We just see the same phenomenon and can still draw out different conclusions. I see death and dread being finite, some see it as freedom, and some other person around the world thinks it's another round of reincarnation.
Your view on it would definitely be more on the unique side especially, no amount of normalcy in having access to mortality. So to speak.
I didn't think it was odd, some would probably have a better grasp the view if they can articulate it. Seeing dead bodies fresh, rigid and sometimes bathed in formalin gives a different experience per case. Probably one of game changing moments about contemplating death is seeing a cramped room full of dead bodies from orderly to stacked disorderly during the height of pandemic.
I can guess some of the folks there had some semblance of living a comfortable life, some had a hard life based from the calluses on their palms and specific muscle groups more developed for manual labor than others but most bodies need a closer look to give those hints. Social status had no bearing there, everyone is naked and had a backstory of some sort why they didn't get claimed. Those lump of dead meat sacs once lived and had a name but everyone looked equal in death.
all naked bodies look equal until they are next to a pigmy black man with an elephant trunk.
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