Looking at the clock, seeing all 4s,
Wonder what it means, or what I’m in for.
Whirlwind of thoughts, mind speeding away,
Brought back to earlier days, contemplating the ways
How to get out, how to get away from it all,
Being scared of running, had to fall...
Scraped knees, sensations running rampant through my veins,
Oh the pain, shooting signals to my brain,
It’s insane the things we ignore, because we’re always told
To calm down and sit still, so lemme ask,
How many children sit in pain, watching their senseless mothers
Verbally abuse them in vain, unable to witness pleasure?
They seek pain, submission to the game,
Ain’t that grand man? It ain’t sound fair,
“Life’s not fair, grow up”
You’re the one ignoring how it changed,
The day you made the choice to ignore what was going on inside,
You inflicted pain by neglecting the ones who needed help,
Now they have to try and grow...away, to avoid more pain.
They seek shelter, a physical space, surely,
But a mental one just the same…
It’s called sanctuary for a reason. A place to calm down,
Free of other people, at least in the mental sense,
See, it doesn’t matter how many cents you make,
None of it makes any difference unless you have
Common sense. It isn’t so common, don’t you see?
That’s why we live in this reality.
It is a clusterfuck of conflicting narratives,
A cacophony of other voices, telling other people what THEY need to do.
I see slaves, sheep, the weakest minds of our generation,
Succumbing to addiction and despair, because,
Well, their mothers were never there.
Woah, I love this poem it's so deep, powerful, and thought-provoking.
This poem describes the child's perspective of a world that can be filled with pain and abuse but also the possibility of escape. I also love the imagery of the clock (4s) and how the 4 represents the time of reckoning.
This was written about an old friend of mine who remembered a deeply-repressed childhood memory of abuse that triggered her 20 years later during her loveless marriage. The 4s were appearing everywhere I looked, not just on the clock, so it struck me as important to write down
Woww, so sad but amazing.
most of my life has been sad like this, but i'm only now beginning to share it
😥😥😥