By the way, I was also once in a situation where I thought that I could not go on. I would like to encourage you that better days will come again for you. That you can write about your feelings and experiences is already a huge step. It is always better to express your thoughts to the outside world instead of letting them circle around in your head over and over again.
Yes, I want to see the shiny better days in life and that is why I asked for professional help. I have PTSD and all I can it's very hard to deal with all the pains and emotions, very intimidating and overwhelming. That's why I asked for help...
I am convinced that even the bad times will lead to something good again, which we might not have achieved without them.
I believe that too, after darkness, light always comes...
Maybe you could consider moving to a smaller place, but not far from a bigger city. Then you can combine both for you, depending on how you feel.
I kept in mind living in a small town near to a big city but let's see...
Thank you so much for stopping by, I really appreciate it...