Bueno esta amistad empezó cuando yo estaba aburrida en Facebook y encontré el perfil de una chica que me había parecido muy linda, en seguida quise ser su amiga y un día de la nada me habló y me dijo que le parecí bonita y me dibujó yo me sorprendí y hablé más con ella ya que me parecía muy bonito como dibujaba y quería aprender de ella .
Empezamos a hablar y me dijo que tenia problemas de TLP y yo pues le comenté que no me importaba y que quería ser su amiga y que la iba a apoya en todo momento y pues también tuve la confianza de contarle de mi depresión al poco rato salió el tema de la weed y me invitó a fumar un día yo en ese tiempo si fumaba así que acepté.
Cabe mencionar que yo tenía novio y ella lo sabía pero ese día estando high creo que se le olvidó y me empezó a coquetear, por lo que le dije que tenia pareja y no quería hacer nada, despues de eso seguimos hablando y nos hicimos más cercanas todo iba bien hasta que me mudé con mi novio por que ya no me sentía cómoda en mi casa y empezaron los problemas.
Un día ella me preguntó si podía quedarse conmigo ya que se había peleado con sus padres y yo y mi novio aceptamos, yo ya había dejado la weed pero esta chica trajo con sigo pues bastante de ella yo no quería consumir pero me sentí presionada y lo hice (lo sé todo mal) después de eso empezó a buscar personas que fueran a la casa para hacer una fiesta pero cabe resaltar que no conocíamos a nadie.
Así lo hizo tres días seguidos y un día sin siquiera preguntar, el ultimo día que estuvo en la casa de mi novio hizo una ultima fiesta pero esta vez me pidió que le regalara una de mis pastillas para la ansiedad Amprazolam que como algunos saben es Xanax es decir si se utiliza mal es una droga yo no quería aceptar sin embargo me chantajeo emocionalmente y se la dí pero le supliqué que no lo mezclara con nada, ese día no tenía ganas de una fiesta así que me encerré en mi cuarto con mi novio a platicar pero pues luego mi novio me dijo que nos unamos a la fiesta un rato para luego dormir.
Llegamos al otro cuarto y mi amiga estaba fumando weed y tomando alcohol, se puso bien feo el asunto, se puso a gritar, llorar y se quería hacer daño, yo la traté de cuidar e hice lo que pude y la llevé a su casa.
Después de eso me enteré que estaba en el hospital por un intento de suicidio y cada día le preguntaba por ella a su mamá hasta que me dejó de responder, después de un mes me enteré que había salido del hospital y nunca me contactó, me sentí mal y me deprimí, pensé que ya no quería ser mi amiga pero luego me habló y fue para decirme lo mal amiga que era porque según me valió que se pasara a morir, yo le expliqué que estuve preguntando por ella y que ella cuando salió no me habló y ella no me pidió disculpas, lo dejé pasar e hice como si nunca hubiera pasado eso, luego volví a dejar de fumar weed porque solo lo hice por ella y no supe nada de ella hasta que me habló y yo le contesté y la invité a un evento lgbt+ que había ella primero aceptó y me dijo que hiciéramos una fiesta después de ello y yo no estaba muy convencida pero acepté.
Pero luego no me sentí bien por otras cosas y le dije que solo fuéramos al evento a lo que ella me respondió que mejor no y me puse triste pero lo acepté, luego me enteré que fue con un amigo a parte al mismo evento que le invité y me decepcioné mucho y se lo dije a lo que ella respondió que yo no aportaba nada a la amistad y pues decidí dejar esa amistad por la paz, ahora estoy mucho mejor y si tienen una amistad similar les sugiero que la dejen por su salud mental.
Bueno ese fue mi post de hoy espero les haya gustado y les haya entretenido, ya volveré de una forma mas formal en estos días saludos desde México.
English
After a while I have returned, I had some problems that I may tell later and that is why I stopped publishing, okay today I will participate in the blogging challenge of tripode and I will tell you about my most disastrous and dysfunctional relationship but it will be in friendship and not in courtship.
Well this friendship started when I was bored on Facebook and I found the profile of a girl who had seemed very pretty to me, I immediately wanted to be her friend and one day out of nowhere she spoke to me and told me that she thought I was pretty and I drew me I was surprised and talked more with her since she seemed very nice how she drew and wanted to learn from her.
We started talking and she told me that she had BPD problems and I told her that I didn't care and that I wanted to be her friend and that I was going to support her at all times and well, I also had the confidence to tell her about my depression after a while she came out The weed issue and he invited me to smoke one day, and at that time I did smoke so I accepted.
It is worth mentioning that I had a boyfriend and she knew it but that day being high I think she forgot and she started flirting with me, so I told her that I had a partner and I didn't want to do anything, after that we kept talking and we got closer everything was going well until I moved in with my boyfriend because I no longer felt comfortable in my house and the problems started.
One day she asked me if she could stay with me since she had fought with her parents and I and my boyfriend agreed, I had already left the weed but this girl brought a lot of her with me because I did not want to consume but I felt pressured and I did (I know everything wrong) after that he started looking for people who would come to the house to have a party but it should be noted that we did not know anyone.
He did it three days in a row and one day without even asking, the last day he was at my boyfriend's house he had a last party but this time he asked me to give him one of my Amprazolam anxiety pills, which as some know is Xanax That is, if it is misused, it is a drug, I did not want to accept, however, I emotionally blackmailed myself and I gave it to him but I begged him not to mix it with anything, that day I did not feel like a party so I locked myself in my room with my boyfriend to talk but then my boyfriend told me to join the party for a while and then sleep.
We got to the other room and my friend was smoking weed and drinking alcohol, the matter got really ugly, she started screaming, crying and she wanted to hurt herself, I tried to take care of her and did what I could and took her home.
After that I found out that she was in the hospital for a suicide attempt and every day I asked her mother about her until she stopped answering me, after a month I found out that she had left the hospital and never contacted me, I felt bad and I got depressed, I thought she no longer wanted to be my friend but then she spoke to me and it was to tell me how bad a friend she was because as it was worth her to come to die, I explained to her that I was asking about her and that when she left she was not She spoke to me and she didn't apologize, I let it go and I pretended that never happened, then I quit smoking weed again because I only did it for her and I didn't know anything about her until she spoke to me and I answered her and I invited to an lgbt + event that she had first accepted and told me to have a party after it and I was not very convinced but I accepted.
But then I didn't feel good about other things and I told her to just go to the event to which she replied that it was better not and I was sad but I accepted it, then I found out that she went with a friend to the same event that I invited her to. and I was very disappointed and I told her to which she replied that I did not contribute anything to the friendship and then I decided to leave that friendship for peace, now I am much better and if you have a similar friendship I suggest you leave it for your mental health .
Well that was my post today I hope you liked it and it has entertained you, I will return in a more formal way these days greetings from Mexico.
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