Not hope DO, you been to su much trouble this is the last thing before you go from rock bottom to back up and you still have a whole life infront of you so this is a must I know I am hard but this cannot I repeat cannot be the end. You are important to the world and need to show that even that sucker from Russia cannot be the reason you go under!!
You can do this and it will be hard yes but you can ! The meds make a difference aswell and the summer is coming that will be better I am positive I know you will come back