I'm so pleased you are getting help and good you are writing about it as well. It's ok not to feel strong or brave, sometimes you need support. I'm sure with the right counsellor you will feel better as it seems you have been carrying a lot around with you.
My neighbour committed suicide over 2 years ago. I didn't witness anything thankfully, but I liked him and it was a huge shock. I can't imagine how I'd have coped if I had seen it happen.
You have done the right thing in seeking help. It's no wonder you collapsed with the weight of it all.
As always, take care. ❤
At first, I thought I am mad or became crazy, it was a horrible feeling. I always try to motivate myself to move forward but I forgot that I have a limit. I ignored my mental health situation completely and I kept everything inside which became huge. Now they are coming out with a lot of aggression and anger. I have a past medical history as well related to depression and all of a sudden I was having flashbacks as well.
My biggest lesson is I shouldn't get involved in something which is related to blood and violence. I am not that strong to handle horrible, scary, and unfortunate situations like this one. Witnessing sliced throat and blood was too much...The man didn't die but his action killed me from the inside...
It's one thing after another for you and everyone has a limit. I think most people would have been affected seeing something like that. We forget our mental health. If it was physical pain we'd quickly go and get it checked out. Just talk and let people help you. X
Exactly and that's why I went to work the next day thinking everything is fine...