It's okay if you can't handle everything. It's okay if you're not strong, we're human and there's no way that the situation you're going through doesn't affect you.
The fact that you seek help from another specialist can be very good. There really are people doing health care jobs who seem to hate what they do. Luckily, if you search, you will get better care.
It is normal to break down, you are a human being who has been through a lot. There's nothing wrong.
No matter the situation, there is always an opportunity to get ahead. No matter how hard we see everything.
Depression is horrible, I know it well, you can't see anything but a gray world. And it is not something that is removed with attitude or will.
Despite the distance, I send you my best wishes, and I will pray the best I can for you.
Take care, a hug.
My previous psychiatrist rejected my file saying her priority is only UA Nationals and older and women with kids so no matter how everything was, I had to stay quite. I have a major past history which cannot be ignored though the files/records are very old and not with me now. I controlled myself a lot, educated myself about self-control all these years. But right now, I guess I crossed the limit and touched the breaking point. I just hope I will get necessary help as soon as possible...
Thank you so much...
Your case is just as important, because you went through all that traumatic situation.
It is something very difficult to bear, and you need some support and attention to be able to get through it. It is not weakness, that you have breaks, it is perfectly normal. Of course, you don't want to be in that situation, but you are going through a lot.
It would be very good if you got help from a specialist.
Take care.
Last week I spent all of my time with several doctors but the only good thing is hopefully soon I will be able to get a psychiatrist for my treatment...