I don't think I will ever forget the day I was told that I had to have an "emergency cesarean" at 3:30 in the afternoon after 12 hours of difficult labor.
Not only did I feel emotionally broken, but the most immense fear of life came over me. Fear of dying, fear of my baby getting complicated, fear of being alone in such a cold room with no family to accompany you. Fear of thinking that I am alone and I must do everything on my own since I am in a country that is not my homeland (Argentina) I felt fear, a lot of fear.
However, prayer is a powerful blanket. All my relatives, even though they are in Venezuela, gave me the strength I needed, they entrusted me to GOD and little by little the fear turned into emotion. The greatest and most beautiful emotion I had ever felt. I could feel it all the time when they cut my skin layer by layer, and the moment they took the baby out of me and heard his cry, it was the most-awaited and beautiful song that can be heard.
That part was beautiful, but spending 72 hours and then getting home, I'm not going to lie to you, it was bad for me, having gone through a C-section that leaves a scar for life and it's not about the beauty, but remembering my body cut in half and feeling a deep sadness that I could not contain since I did not expect this.
Then I lost a stitch, the scar was getting worse every day, it leaked fluid, it got infected, you can imagine the pain when I drained the scar, it took a while for it to heal, however, it was inevitable that it would happen to me, since being alone I had to get up to take care of the baby (feeding him, changing his diaper, bathing him, among other things) and even though I had my husband, he had to work and I practically saw him at night, he couldn't help me.
I confess that it was not easy, after many months I began to feel better both physically and emotionally and to remind myself that I have brought a life into this world. I would do it again until I fade away, he is the most precious gift that life has given me and I only ask to be with him every moment of his development.
My respects to all women who have brought life either naturally or by cesarean section.
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