Greetings @aezielove, first of all my condolences just thinking about the pain you feel and the nostalgia there is, it is very difficult, sometimes there are no words. I congratulate you for your dedication as a mother and what you are doing to drain the suffering that invades your heart and that of the family is very helpful, also your beautiful work through the scrapbook of your treasure, for those moments when you and your other children need to have Alexander present, although undoubtedly the best memories are those that are in your mind and heart, just to imagine the pain that also overwhelms your twin and what you must miss him, it makes me a lump in my throat.
I hope you can continue to receive comfort and if you need to clear your head, rest and even do nothing for a day, take your time, breathe and move on. I am touched by the courage you have to write and express these feelings and the time you have taken to keep in mind the beautiful memory of your son. May God's blessing and help be with you and your children.
It's is indeed very difficult. The pain and desperation that I feel every now and then is very difficult to conquer but I tried my very best not to be eaten by those emotions. 🥺 Though it takes lot of courage to be able to conquer but I know we will soon get to slowly move on from this painful part of our life with God's grace and with the help of our family and friends.
Greetings @nathy33, thank you so much for the comforting message you have left for me. I do appreciate it.