You'll break out dear, I believe you will...just don't give up or give into those sad thoughts. I know the feeling; maybe not in the same measure but i've had some dark patches too.
As for Hive, I think the difficulty you find with consistency is because your articles are laden with emotions, unlike mine which is just based on random thoughts. You write powerfully, but maybe it doesn't always have to be so painful.
You'll overcome
I am sure I will as the will to is there.
Oh yes. I write from a very emotional place which is why I take a leave from poisoning my feed. Not sure that everything I pen is so painful but I am sure most are rather reflective but I am sorry if they come out as painful.
Thank you for the kind words.