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The speaker articulates the exhausting duality of maintaining an external persona while preparing for auditions. This constant act of wearing different masks took a toll on mental health, creating a disposition of anxiety and dysfunction. The struggle between performing for auditions and reverting to nonchalance when rejected showcases the emotional rollercoaster faced by many in the industry.
In reflecting on these experiences, he overlaps the reality of being a successful actor with the necessity of forming meaningful relationships. The fear of diminishing self-worth outside of work, relying solely on professional validation, raised the stakes on personal fulfillment.