First off, let me start by saying that it's okay to feel like you aren't doing as well as you are supposed to, Thank God for everything that you are fortuned with, take a look at all the beautiful things around you, and be stress free for just a momentBe strong and know that you are in God's hands. Everything will work out. It may not be today or tomorrow, but eventually the pieces will fall into place and you will understand why the battle was worth it.To start off with, I am so proud of you. Life hasn’t been too easy on you lately, and I am truly sorry about that. But despite it all, you have managed to keep your head up and continue fighting throughout.One of the most important lessons learned:I should have been the one to love you, to encourage you, to hold you up, to hug you, and to appreciate you.Instead, I allowed you to feel unworthy of love, of care, of appreciation, even my own.I allowed you to listen to the judgements of others, I made you feel like you needed to defend yourself, The judgements of others have nothing to do with you, they fear in you what they cannot bare within themselves; it is not your burden to carry, I am sorry I put it on your shoulders.I am sorry, so sorry.You are enough.You and I go way back, to the beginning, I seldom tell you how much I love you.I’m so incredibly sorry I failed you. I’m sorry for hurting you, for leaving you, for not reminding you every second of every day how wonderful you are. How worthy you are. How brave and kind and powerful you are. Please forgive me.YOU are significant.YOU are worthy.YOU are beautiful.YOU are smart.YOU are strong.YOU are enough.And WE MUST CONTINUE. 
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