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since I became vegetarian bbq are not the same for me now

Well... You just haven't tried grilled mushrooms, cauliflower, bell peppers, tomatoes... and a little bit of meat, just to understand what you've doomed yourself to :)

I used to eat meat. Never really liked it

There are two options here: either the cook wasn't the best, or you were trying to bite off a piece of meat from a running and frightened gazelle whose blood was pumping with stinking adrenaline :)