This is one of the imbalance of life that always make to think or ask the question about the real existence of living when all the struggle and hustle of life will end one day without we taking a penny out of this world. I really feel your pain bro and take heart for your loss am really sorry.
Thank you for all the kind words, I don't know where to begin from. There's no usefulness to all the hustles and struggles, it's too futile.