Wow what an incredible journey you've had. Amazing story. I guess I'm one of the weak, if I don't sleep enough my health suffers immediately :( I'm working to become self-sufficient and making progress but I still have a long way to go. I've been sleeping better which has improved my energy and productivity.
I have what we call in America, "helicopter parents." Many times I have dreamed of moving away from home even if I am not ready financially, hoping that with my back against the wall, I would find the strength to do what is necessary. Unfortunately, I know from discussing with them that my parents would be in a state of panic and terror if I just left without proving to them I can live on my own beforehand, and this knowledge and guilt would make it much harder to succeed. So I am trying to show them, even though I cannot unlock the back against the wall mentality while still living with my parents.