I can't even walk a flight of stairs.
Fuck off, coming with all that clever think-aning, then ending on a modest note. I don't buy it (though am genuinely sorry for your fall. At least you fell in style. You fell the fuck down, not just down. Like some loser.)
Back to your ghosts. I think people trying to cheat is a maladjustment, i.e. someone who's been forced into a lane of the system that's not really suited for them trying their best to make do. At least, that's the people I know cheat. And I don't think they'd prefer a meritocracy, no, though I do have sympathy for them. I don't think their merits were properly encouraged, so how could they thrive in a meritocracy?
Would you like yours?
Hm. Yes. I would. I think you would, too. We (and by that I mean a lot of us here, not just you and I) are maladjusted too, but in a very different way.
But what the fuck do I know? I've never worked in a corporation. Then again, haven't fallen the fuck down the stairs, either. Mind your shoulder. Your brain seems about right.
And this is the whole problem with one, right? It is still suited to those who have some kind of advantage, a privilige over others that is suited to success.