It seems I am also @ a cross roads professionally. My current style of freight parameters in this transportation industry are no longer profitable. I am making uncomfortable adjustments to haul different more volatile freight and operate more hours to stay in business. Your words made me think of the future and how calm and logical you analyze your current situation. I wish I had that ability.
Do you have the feelings of doom and stress? An anxiety at all like I am dealing with?
Mine comes from the uncontrollable economic situation I find myself in. And the world gone mad with the possible end of times we are facing with these "superpowers" and their lack of respect for the nuclear M.A.D.
I feel helpless at this point but am pushing on till the wheels quite literally "Fall Off" 😕
The transport world is changing rapidly, isn't it? It is going to be a big issue for all the drivers, plus all the support services that assist them along the journey, like roadhouses.
This is my natural state since the stroke. I am never really "free" of it. However, I get up each day, and do my best to meet obligations, regardless of how I feel. One thing that has changed is that I used to process stress in my head, but now as my automatic thought has all but disappeared, I feel it heavily in my body. Heart attack in coming I suppose.
I really hope you are able to get what you are going through sorted, either by finding solutions to keep going, or finding solutions to do something else instead. I have no idea what that might be for you, but I do know that all of the shit in this world of "centralized leadership" is not doing any favors for the majority of people.
It is the age of Minority Rules, no doubt about it.