Glad you accepted some help. Sitting alone in your sorrow is probably the worst thing you can do, in your situation and will not benefit your health at all but I totally get where it's coming from and it's always easier said than done.
Keep breathing.
Sending you strengh.
Also, to get back to your first sentence:
I've been trying to train my mind to see even the slightest good in everything that's been happening to me,
Try to not see it as 'happening to you' but focus on the things that you can control, the choices that you can make and the things that you do have.
Much love!
Thank you. Well, I didn't "accept" the help. It was the only one that came. Not many are offering it, and it's okay. I've accepted that that's how tough times can be. Help is rare and probably few, scanty. Sometimes none.
Thank you for the kind words