I also massively live under living minimum, have permanent pain, am partly homeless and was also already very very hungry for way too long
I get no help by the state/ welfare
I was homeless multiple times (even as a child), so I know what that is. I receive a very low pension-like income, but only because I live with multiple disabilities. Otherwise the state do not care about me either. The very low income is around 80 000 Hungarian Forint (HUF) per month, which is currently only €199.67 EUR, because €1 EUR is currently 400.66 Hungarian Forint (HUF). This is enough to not starve to death.
Instead of helping me, the state preferred to support my mother in welfare fraud so she can have vacation
while indirectly trying to kill me
I do not know what is the situation about your mother, but my mother died five years ago (on 2017.12.17). She did everything for us (for my brother and for me). She loved us very much. I wish that I would have spent much more time with her. I wish that I would have been much more kind to her. I wish that she could still live. She deserved much better. Both from me, and from life in general. She worked in her entire life. Even in her early pensioner age. She was 64 years old. She died because of brain tumor (cancer).
Probably the best thing would be actually to speak with your mother. I do not know what does "indirectly trying to kill me" means in your case, but probably a misunderstanding. A mother loves her child, and I am sure that she love you too, deep in her heart.
I've learned a lot by it and the state probably hoped to get rid of me but only made me stronger
Sometimes I feel the same about our state. Looks like there is indeed no much difference between the German and the Hungarian government in this aspect.
Stay strong.
Happy New Year again.
Have a nice day. All the best. Greetings and much love from Hungary.
Sad to read, I would prefer your mother being alive
mine sadly is a full blown psychopath and hunted away 5 parts of our family and is now keeping everything for herself while my dad, my little sister and I are forced to fight for survival
We did everything for her, but it was not enough - now she is enjoying WHAT WE BUILT OVER DECADES with some foreign new steady boyfriend (while blocking the divorce with my father and forcing the whole family into survival situations)
I can understand you and your love to ur mother, sadly I never got that love and maybe therefore am also unable to give it.
I am not sure. We tried everything we can imagine to help her, but she plainly did not want.
She wanted more but not of honest real help. only of materialism
me, all my siblings and even my dad are traumatized
Attachment trauma but probably also developmental trauma
We are trying to limit damage but it is very fucking rough - while she just goes completely batshit psychopathic crazy full madness
and we do not even have a car or money to buy food
sorry for the negative energy, again thanks and all the best to you