My deepest condolences @rebeysa85 I'm so sorry for your loss and that you are so haunted by it. Death is never an easy thing to deal with especially when it is someone we love so dearly. I'm so sorry that you had to see your father like that, but I think it was so selfless of you to do it instead of making your mom do it, it would have broken her as well.
Please look after yourself.
I don't know what my mom could have done if she had seen him like that, I don't think she could've handled it. I was like an automaton and people thought I was insensitive, but I had to push my feelings aside to get done what had to be done, I crumbled later until my mom told me "Don't break, if you fall, I'll fall behind you".
Oh @rebeysa85
You are so strong and your mom needed you to be strong right then. Ignore the people that said that - they clearly don't know you and can't see the true generosity of what you did.
Thank you dear, your words mean a lot to us 💕 God bless your kind soul 💕