I feel you! I haven't celebrated Christmas in almost 10 years, since leaving my home country, at first I had a lot of anger surrounding the wastefulness and superficiality of it all. Since maybe 5 years ago my partner and I began to celebrate solstice and the wheel of the year, and since we have become sedentary we celebrate with others which has become a very magical tradition. This year I actually bought gifts for my parents who opened them on Christmas, all wrapped in recycled papers and handmade little gifts like candles and tinctures. So I feel like this is the first year I am healing some of my issues with Christmas and bringing in what I feel is the nice aspect; expressing gratitude for people and the seasons.