At the beginning I did not like to tell my intimacies here in Hive, but day by day I show a little of what is in my mind through my blog, something that has brought me many benefits, and is that writing is a totally liberating activity. Thanks to writing my ideas, I got cured of mourning and other fears that made me a slave of myself, in fact I discovered that not everyone reads here, but those who really do have helped me with very valuable lessons. Galenkp and his weekend topics are often a great therapy for many...
The Fear: My biggest fear was two and a half years ago and I overcame it a year ago. That something would happen to my parents was always my fear since I was a child, and when the time came, life gave us everything. My dad's accident left him immobile from the waist down, and the problems of money, people not helping and adjusting to this routine was worse than I ever imagined. I was also scared that one of my parents would be left alone, and it's something I live today with my mom now that my dad passed away. It would be easier if my mom and I lived in the same city, but we don't; and even though I got over that fear, now I know that life can change in a second, and I confess that is what scares me the most right now, thinking about going through such a strong situation again with another member of my family is the only thing that scares me, even though I know how to face it...
The Hope: My hope is my country. I am 36 years old, so I knew Venezuela before the disaster we are living now, and even though I was a child I realized how everything was changing for the worse. I hope that young people can be professionals and practice our careers in our own country, close to our families and friends. I hope that we can get to know other frontiers for vacation enjoyment, and not because we have to run away. A change in my country would improve my previous fear, and that is that it is better to face the adversity of an accident or an illness in a normal hospital with professional doctors. Years go by and it seems that I no longer care about politics, but that is not the case, my greatest hope is a change in the government of my country, and I feel that eventually it will happen 🙏
The Ambition: My greatest ambition is to have my own house in the center of the city. Maybe for many people buying a house is something normal, but I am a musician in a country that is not economically privileged, plus I came to the capital on my own, without knowing anyone. It is something I want very much, so I know it will happen sooner or later, in fact I am betting big, it has to be in the center of the city because I want comfort for my people and for me ❤️
The Failure: This failure thing is a little complicated to explain for me, and I have reached a point in my life where I do not see anything as a failure, and all the times I felt like a failure now I see them as steps to get to the place where I am today, for example the three failed times I applied to sing in the successful choral group where I am today, or the two times I was rejected in a period of four years by my wife who is now my wife. I think the only thing I consider a failure is what I can't control, like the time I got sick and they took me to surgery or the accident and death of my father, but even those seem like necessary steps to get to where I am today. I did fail in being thin when I reached my thirties and became fat again, although that is something I can reverse. I think the only thing I will always really regret is not getting the curly hair I wanted, I did everything, but it was unnatural for me 🤣
The Love: Music is my love, but my wife is my great love. I can't describe how perfect my life is now that she is part of my life, I feel like that other part of me that made me feel incomplete my first thirty years of life has arrived. I would do anything for her, as she is one of the reasons that drives me to get up in the mornings. I dare say that thanks to her existence I can no longer complete the last proposal of this weekend challenge, The Hate, and I am a happy person, and even if I hate certain situations in life, it is a passing feeling, I don't really hate anything from my gut. I think the only thing I can categorize in hate or similar feelings is injustice, I will always fight against it...
I like how you express yourself about your parents and your beloved wife. It shows that you feel a deep love for them and it transcends time and the physical as it does with your father. That is the purest love that can exist. Only you in a single post can make me cry with this last one and make me laugh with the failure with being thin and the curls hahahaha You are great... Successes always.
Today I read your post and I see the grief work we always talk about and how happy you are with your life, work and so on... I told you so! hahaha I am very happy that you are happy, a big hug Jesus, thank you always!
I hope you achieve everything you set out to do, when a child takes care of his parents blessings come if or if, happy weekend.
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Your journey is inspiring. You turn hard times into steps forward and keep chasing big dreams. I wish you success in getting your city-center home and enjoying every step of the journey!
Curls, whether you are born with them or not, I love that kind of hair, but if it is not natural it is very difficult to have them haha 😂 I had them when I was a child and I wanted my hair straight, now that I am straightened, I want my curls back, who understands me? 😂
Your post is very touching, the fear of losing parents is something natural to human beings, we all feel it, even as adults because they are our greatest strength in life and I wish you could have your mom close to you 🙏
I am sure you will be able to buy your own house, with patience it will come and surely you will show it to us here, right? hehehe ❤️
I wish you much success, you are achieving great things in your life ❤️