It's another weekend with a amazing weekend engagement prompt, thanks to @galenkp for this great initiative. This weekend we have five question but I will like to answer the fifth question.
When were you the most disappointed in yourself? Explain the situation, how you dealt with it and what outcomes were generated.
Sometimes we will feel disappointed at ourself when we do something that was not expected from us. There is always that moment once in a lifetime.
There was this time I was so disappointed in myself that I don't need anybody to tell me that what I did was wrong but it was unavoidable circumstances for me.
I happened to tell one of my uncle that I needed a job but after that I didn't hear anything from him again for more than three months, I will call him but he will not pick my calls so I forget about him and looked elsewhere for help and this person told me that the work she have at that moment is a traveling work, when I heard that I was so excited that I will be traveling out of my country to see the other side of the world and I did everything she asked me to do.
When everything was set for me to travel, that is when the pandemic broke out and traveling was restricted, the visa and the ticket got expired before the traveling was allowed again, so I have to start the process from the start and that is when my uncle called me and asked me to go and meet someone regarding the job I told him, it was like after a year and I decided to give it a try and processing my traveling at the same time.
The traveling interview and the job interview happened to be on the same day and I have to decide which one to let go so I decided to ditch the job interview for the traveling interview. My uncle called me and asked about the interview and I said it was fine, deep inside me I thought I was receiving him not knowing I am actually deceiving myself.
I waited for the visa but I never get one and I didn't attend the job interview so I can't expect the result either, so I lose at both ends. I can't even tell my uncle what happened and he doesn't know either, he just said maybe it's not my luck.
I know deep inside me that I lied to him so I feel so disappointed in myself and I thought that maybe if I had take the job interview serious I would have get the job, it pain me but there is nothing I can do about it because it's late before I realized that and I just keep hoping for maybe another job and maybe they can still call me for the but none seem to come since then.
Since I lose on the both sides, I have to forget about it and move on with my life. Though I later get a job but it's not to my satisfaction and I have to leave it at the end of the day. Every time I remember what happened then, I used to blame myself for it but it's in the past now and it's irreversible.
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Loosing at both ends is not your fault, and you shouldn't have blamed yourself for not attending the job interview. you did exactly what every other people will do, When two opportunities come in at the same time, we try to weigh the two and go for the one with more benefits. Moreso if you had attended the interview, the end result may still be the same thing. Nevertheless you should have explained your serried schedule that day to your uncle. Wish you the best.
That is my point, maybe if I didn't lie about going for the job interview, he might be able to help me. But the fear of him know I was planning to go somewhere else make lie to him. It pain me tho