Yes you're so right, we all deal with tragedies differently. I find myself swinging between anger and acceptance, tears to laughter, demotivated to energetic. It's like being on a seesaw, especially in the beginning, and yes, it softens over time, but that big hole remains.
I wish I could pass on a piece of advice my Mom was given after losing her second child untimely.
10 simple words:
You have to get on with the job of living!
That's what I'm trying to do, plus writing down my feelings here on Hive also has been very therapeutic.
Thank you for your encouragement @galenkp.
Not that it matters what I think, but I believe you're on the right track following that wisdom. There'll be good and bad moments, hopefully they balance each other. Your partner goes everywhere you do because he's in your heart and memory, I think that's a nice way to proceed.
Thank you @galenkp, the good and bad moments are starting to balance themselves indeed. unlike those first few awful months!
I do believe hubby is watching over me and will always be a part of my psyche.
Have a great week!