I can relate with your experience, it's as if we have almost same character. People only judge someone because of what others said not necessarily because they have actually related with the person.
One thing I believe is that despite one's countenance, there are still some people who will love to be friends with the person - just like the popular saying even a mad person have friends
So dear even as you are trying to let go of the unfriendly disposition, don't beat yourself too much, remember you didn't create yourself.
!HUG
Thank you very much. I feel encouraged. In as much as I am trying to change,I am also trying to maintain who I originally am.
You're welcome
I sent 1.0 HUG
(2/3)Dear @mharvis, you just got hugged. on behalf of @luchyl.
Thank youuu!!!