Having something like that held between your chest and back is not an easy weight to carry, at some point I wanted it to be a fictional account, I'm glad because you got that out of your being and this post will help heal those memories.
Alomejor survived those people have more lives than a cat, they become experts at outwitting death, only the good ones die by a scratch, so release that from your mind, he must be alive and if he died he couldn't have hurt anyone anymore.
You are good, and your brother knew it that's why he protected you and God allowed his last days to be with you so you could better accept the mourning.
My friend, he sent you a deep hug. @germanandradeg
Thank you my beautiful friend for your beautiful words.