It is logical that this accident has caused you psychological trauma and you are afraid to walk the streets with your steel giant.
The good news is that fear often keeps us on our toes. In my case, every time I travel I think I'm going to have an accident. I don't like to ride in cars.
This profession also gives you an important part of the livelihood you need to live, or at least I think it does, and in these 31 years you are already more than a recognized truck driver.
Thanks for sharing. Happy weekend. Cheers and best regards.
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