I have been a pretty 'close' observer of this process, as you know (albeit some countries away), so I have an idea how this must have felt for you
but I also do think that perfectionism often hurts us more than it helps us.
In fact, did you know that perfectionism and people pleasing ( two of my strongest traits too, although I have been changing this, in the recent years ) are common in people with so called 'chronic health issues' ( that luckily can be cured most of the time )? Mind and body are as connected as Vin Diesel and you. Working on strengthening the mind is far from easy but it can be done.
Hope to see you guys soon!