I Thought Forever Was The Deal.

I thought forever was the deal between Justin and I. After four failed relationships, I gave love a trial again with my ex-boyfriend. He texted me in the early days of last year February. Out of all my exes, he’s the one I love most and getting him back is a big win.

“Ahan, you look finer ooh. Show me the way, girl,” this message, at that moment, was worth more than a credit alert. Who would believe that Justin in his right senses will text me?

“Lol, I’m just there oh,” I responded with a smile on my face but deep down, I wanted him to go straight to the question asking if I will be his girlfriend and if I have forgiven him for his past behaviors.

“I’ve been in Abuja lately but when I get back next week, we will link up. I’ll get Kilishi (a popular Nigerian street food) for you at the airport,” this time, I knew something serious was about to happen again.

Everyday, we chatted about one thing or the other and he made me know how much he wanted me back.
“I know I didn’t treat you well and I’m sorry about it,” I kept holding on to this text he sent to me and that made me believe that he was being serious this time. The former playboy is now a serious man.

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After two weeks, we linked up in a restaurant. I saw him standing up when he sighted me from afar. I smiled and he came towards me to hug and welcome me.
“I’ve fallen in love again,” I said in to myself and I played along. I’m a soft girl who’s also in her soft girl era and “Yes” was the only word I could say after he wooed me.

I had the best relationship of my life for two months straight. Within two months, I met his family members, we went on dates, parties and everything couples did which we could afford.
Then, the sinking began. Who ever thought my relationship could sink this fast?

“Hello babe. I’ve been calling for twelve hours and you’re not picking up. Is everything okay?” after series of calls, I then sent a WhatsApp text.
My message was delivered but wasn’t read nor responded to.
I waited longer hours for him to respond to the message. Instead, he posted a lady on WhatsApp captioned “their mummy”. This literally means that he’s in love lady.
My body began to shake immediately after I saw the WhatsApp post. My head was hot and tears rolled out of my eyes. I texted him again and finally got a response.

How does a fool react when he or she is in love? They believe all lies even though it is crystal clear that it is a lie. That was the exact shoes I was wearing at that time.

“I’ve been busy at work but I’ll text you when I’m free,” confronting him was the best idea but what if I confront him and he blocks my line? That was my greatest fear in that relationship so I managed the little time he spared for me.

Justin who talks to me at least twelve out of twenty four hours in a day now talks to me for an hour or doesn’t check on me at all.
“My relationship with Justin is sliding backwards,” I sent the text to Mary, my friend since high school.

“Babe, this guy only came to use you. He never liked you. Let him go,” why will Mary advice me to leave my relationship? I acted like I did what she asked me to do but everyday, I kept on texting Justin.

At last, I successfully got ignored by Justin without him saying a word to me nor telling me what I did wrong to him but I didn’t want to lose him.
I texted Justin for two consecutive weeks, pleading with him to talk to me and pardon me if I’ve done something wrong and crying in my toilet every night because I didn’t want anyone to see me cry.

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Since the relationship was sliding backwards, I knew it was going to end but I tried hard to see if we can work things out but that didn’t happen.

“This will be the last message I’ll send to you. I don’t know why you came back to me with impure intentions. Next time, let your intentions be pure,” and truly, that was the last message I sent in the backsliding relationship and I cried my eyes out for weeks before getting back on track.

Today, I’m blessed with a man whom has made me forget the sorrows from my past relationships.