This is written with a rising tension which boils over, leaving the reader stunned. You express so much about alcoholism and it's relation to the coldness of society; the lack of anything better to fill the void with when relating to what's around you feels impossible... And there is the gun, egging you on. I related to this story in a way which captivated and horrified me. You're a great writer!
I know this is labeled as fiction but... I hope you are okay. You are important. 💚
Thanks for taking the time to read. You've done more for me than you'll ever know just by posting this comment. Little things like this make me want to keep going. Peace 🤗