You have been through a lot, @volleyren20. One day you will look back on this time in your life, and I predict you will see it as a time of challenges, pain and growth. Sometimes we learn the most about ourselves during those periods of choppy waters.
I hope you regain your confidence and find your direction. It sounds like you have good support from your family and boyfriend. That's wonderful!
Have you thought of taking some courses in an area of study that helps you get special certifications? That can help you to add more qualifications to your resume, while also helping to build your confidence in your field. Good luck!