I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I do hope you are okay. Please know you are not expected to be okay, but I hope you doing okay. I was there a year and a half ago and it is rough. However, there are many of us here for you, should you need us.
Sending you gentle hugs and continued thoughts for your healing.
Thank you for your assured and heartfelt love. I am not fine cos of situation before all this and just after my mum passed. It was a daily struggle to care for him and i have been so ill myself etc. Struggling to settle to even give some form of befitting burial to forgive myself a bit but it is seemingly going to be impossible. I will just try. Thank you again.
You will get through it, but don't rush. Take whatever time you need to work through it all. I am thinking of you and sending you as much love as I can. I know it doesn't always physically help, but it helps to know you are not alone and others are thinking and rooting for you. You are most welcome, always here if you need to talk. DM me if needed.