I can't breathe! Trust me! I'm not joking. I can't breathe! I'm shaking ! I'm crying! I'm begging for help ! But in silence…
Right now my life's falling apart. I don't even know what the fuck I did that my life sucks that much . I mean seriously! I never did anything wrong with someone as far as I remember. Then why should I deserve such pain ! Why is my life not getting any better ? I mean what is wrong with me ?
Is it because I am too available to everyone or just I'm capable of so much love that man cannot understand?
I'm a very lovable person, at least I think! When I love someone I can die for him ! I take care of him from the bottom of my heart ! But somehow most of the time we never received the same treatment we gave . And it's alright! Not everyone is the same .
I loved a person so much in my life. We had a 7+ years relationship. But day by day our relationship was getting bitter . We had a lot of fights. Then one day he decided that was enough and he broke up with me ! This is a very short summary of my love story. After my first break up, I kind of became suicidal. But since I'm the oldest in my family I couldn't end my life . My whole family depends on me .
Then I came to hive to share my feelings with everyone. Things were going ok . But then a man came to my life again . He wasn't my boyfriend. Wasn't my friend either. I'm a very conservative person, like I don't usually touch other boys except my boyfriend type . Or I consider him as my brother. So technically in my opinion what I feel now is that he was more than a friend . Because I started to like him and he gave me so many hints that our feelings were mutual. It's not like we talked too much . No. But when we were together everything was better than before. I was finally happy after my horrible break up. Then some days ago suddenly without any notice he started ignoring me .
I don't even know what happened. Everything was good between us. Till now I don't have any answer.
You know when you broke up with your boyfriend or girlfriend you know that a relationship ended. But I don't know what to call it in this case . It's like after some horrible mental pain you found peace, then boom ! Again that pain ! 😂 Lol.
That's it. Just shared my emotions 🙂
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I'm sorry you have to go through pain again and I hope things can get better for you, without much suffering. Also, I'd like to suggest again, to look for more appropriate community, before deciding to post in OCD. I would suggest Emotions and Feelings and Ladies of Hive, just like last time.
Here's a guide I put together to help you learn about how communities work and why you should use them -> Communities Explained - Newbie Guide. I also put together a list of communities, which is not complete, there are much more communities on Hive, but it will help you get started.
Once you posted your post in the right community, you can then cross post it to OCD community. Here's a guide about cross posting.
Thanks again ! Sorry I was in a bad mood so didn't remember that 😔
Should I repost it again? What do you say ? I can't edit the community now.
No. Never repost anything as that is considered abuse.
A friend bé patient, you will have another boy Friend it works liké that there