Shattered

[derangedvisions]

^{Photo taken by me @derangedvisions}

Failure

A couple weeks ago, I made a post about how all of the medications that the VA was giving me was starting to have some pretty bad effects on my body.

After about a month of weening off of some of the meds, I am completely off of two of them and only having minor withdrawals from them still. One of the meds, my main mood stabilizer, as I was lowering the dosages of this one, I began to notice that my emotions were beginning to be all over the place. It was starting to get pretty bad and felt like I was losing control of everything, so I decided that I was not going to be able to function normally while lowering this one.

I have recently gone back to my normal dose of it and I feel like my mood is beginning to return to normal. I felt like I was a failure at first because I was not able to continue to lower the dose on that one medication, but then I realized that I will probably need to wait a while before lowering that one because I am sure that coming off of everything at once was probably too much for my body to handle.

I created this image to represent my feelings about my mind right now. It is shattered and I am doing what I can to continue to put the pieces back together.

Comments

[deathwing]

Don't worry Wes, give it some time. You'll eventually do it. One thing I can suggest to bring the mood up, anytime, anywhere. Legos. I am serious. Legos are awesome and a nice hobby.

[derangedvisions]

I haven't messed around with Legos in a while. I may have to look into that.

[pixresteemer]

Bang, even on HIVE I did it again... I just rehived your post!Sorry, no beers or deranged or trdo yet... waiting on steem-engine to make the move to HIVE...Week 2 of my contest just started...you can now check the winners of the previous week!

[hivedevil]

Looks like a honeycomb hive mirror

Get well soon, you're on the right track

[derangedvisions]

Thanks homie

[hivedevil]

[intrepidphotos]

Best of luck with it all mate; can take a long time to normalize when those kind of drugs are being changed around.

[derangedvisions]

Thanks man. Hopefully not too much longer, this sucks.

[bigtom13]

I'm really glad you are 'watching out for yourself' and not just blindly committed to a course of action. Adapt and overcome as it were...

[derangedvisions]

Thanks Tom.

[betterthanhome]

To do it more slowly and one after the other is probably best. And Lego is truly a good advice. I did play with my old Lego, hidden in my Mums basement, for a whole winter a few years back.

All the best.