2 months of your absence

6/9/22 - 6/11/22.
So two months ago, My immediate family and I woke up to our greatest shock that not only brought tears but pain that time would never take away.

Everything was going well except that Barnabas was a little bit sick but that's not his first time of getting sick and it didn't look serious as any of his crisis. It just started on Friday and I thought he was pretending because he didn't want to wash the plates but then on Sunday I knew he was not joking because how will he keep that act up since on Friday and then he had body pains and again on Monday I was drawn to him and I paid a little bit of attention to him not much tho and this 15 year old guy was saying "Daddy I don't want to die" or to anyone around him and what else would we say other than "you will not die" or that "we are praying for you"
And then when it was night on the 5th of September I went into my room to sleep as I prayed for a restful night only to be awakened by the bang on my room door my mom said something but the only sense I could make of it was Barnabas.
And when I entered her room I really cannot put to writing my exact feelings when I saw my darling brother laying on the bed helplessly and my brothers were praying, my parents too were praying and I joined the prayer with tears😭😭
God all I wanted at the moment was for him to just wake up from his sleep or I should wake up from this nightmare.
I just wanted the sleep to be all over but turns out that at some point in life everyone will sleep and not wake Only to be awakened by the Trumpet call.
We prayed but then after some minutes I stopped as I knew he had gone
N.B I truly understand tha.t this place is not religious biased and I know that some people will not agree with all of the occurrence but I'm just telling the story with all sincerity as any editing will have no effect on the reality.

FLASHBACK TO AUGUST
We had our campmeeting during August and Barnabas did some main restitutions that I'm not sure I would have had the courage to do and now when I think of it I just see it as him putting his house in order
Restitution is making right the wrongs. He also got salvation and this is when you subscribe to God's heavenly kingdom and salvation doesn't happen without evidence or fruits so I could testify that he was saved and not Only me.
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Even if we were not all about hospitals we did not have a car and this happened around past 3 in the morning so there was no way we would have just ran across our so silent street and bang on some neighbors door to help us to the hospital not because we don't have friends in fact we had and Barney was well known in the neighborhood so it wouldn't have been an issue but most houses have been made that they don't easily hear sounds. How? I don't know but it happens in our house too and one time when we were robbed and we banged the gates of the neighbors they did not hear even the gunshots sooo 🙃

And then when morning came we buried him you are thinking it is too early but it would have changed nothing even though we kept him for a year
Even if I was not allowed to go with them and only the eldest of us went with them and till now it is what it is........
So the last I heard Barnabas talk was on Monday the next time I hugged him he was already a corpse even if my mom ♥️ still gave me a birthday gift on his behalf on September 12 yes I know he died just 6 days to my birthday and then a week before we cooked indomie I cooked mine and he cooked his I'll share the picture he is not a good cook and he is so selective like I cannot eat Catfish, I cannot eat chicken Legs and many others and as you know a 15 year old boy is not supposed to be perfect because there are times when I'm pissed at him, there are times he purposely comes to disturb me, there are times mummy reports him to me because of his laziness but I'll choose those times over and over again to his total absence.
Barbabas indomie vs mine

Then mummy told us that Barnabas asked for water and then she laid him down because he mentioned that he wanted to sleep and so she too she went to her bed to sleep even though they were in the same room and she was even planning to give him food later and then when she woke up few hours later she thought he was still sleeping because he had been sleeping just shortly for a little while but when she later got to him to turn him,the little boy had left us and with his absence caused us pain so this moment I told my brother goodnight and there was no other opportunity to greet him good morning 😔

But sincerely the only reason why I can write this write up without shedding a drop of tear is because I have the comforter and he comforted us so well that we knew without doubts it was not by our power or by our might but the grace of God and sincerely we stood together as a family and helped ourselves through the dark moments and even though we cannot forget our loss or ignore the pain his loss brought we have found a way to live around it and I must say 2 months without Barney seems like 2 years to me
This was the last picture I took with him

BarnabasJames we miss you and we love you.
You live on and on until we are no more among the living which is a long time from now.

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